Saturday, July 31, 2010

Heading back out tomorrow!!!

This tent trailer (while somewhat expensive) has been the best purchase I have ever made!  We had an absolute blast out in Kelowna, and will be going back every year from now on.  The boys made so many friends, many of whom go the same week every year.  I also met some many wonderful people while out there, already planning out next years trip.

Tomorrow we are heading out Salmon Arm, to join some friends of mine.  I am so looking forward to the warmth and sunshine again.  The boys love camping, and so do I.  Winters will now be spent getting ready for the next summer!

Here's a few pictures from our trip out to Kelowna.

Friday, July 16, 2010

I Love Kelowna!!!

All this warmth and sunshine has just been heavenly! I feel myself relaxing (as much as I can with my boys around) more every day. There is just so much to do and see, and of course days to just hang out at the lake playing in the sand. Being near the lake does make me nervous, since my boys are not great swimmers, but that is being addressed with swimming lessons. I'm already thinking we should come back next year for a week or two, by then Monkey and Bug should be decent swimmers, and Little Man well on his way.

I am hoping I might have a chance to come back here on my own this summer. Even 5 days out here to just de-stress, enjoy the warmth, the lakes, and of course visit the wineries, would be a truly great personal holiday.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

So far so good!

I have made it out to Kelowna, BC with the boys and trailer, all in one piece! The drive was longer than I would have liked, but with hauling The Puppy (that us what the boys have nicknamed the trailer), and a lot of road construction, there wasn't much to do but take it slow. The boys handled the drive really well, we left at 7 am, and didn't get to this spot till almost 6pm! We did of course make numerous stops, but i am just so darn proud of my boys

Found a fairly decent campground here, still not sure just how long I will stay, just wait and see what happens. The site is not ideal, but not the worst I've seen, and the location certainly makes up for that. From here we can easily explore most of the okanagan, without having to drive too far.

It's been a long day for not only me, butthe boys... Handled so much better than I even dreamed. Boys are now asleep, so it's now time for me to crash as well.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

A slew of posts!

I am questioning my decision already!!!  This is not good... I need something to occupy my evenings, something to look forward to.  Housework just doesn't have the appeal, same with sewing or crafts... but something needs to happen to keep me from going crazy!

Exercise... I need to get back to nightly exercise!  I am heading out camping Wednesday with my boys, so it won't be an easy thing to work into my evenings... but when I'm back, I need to make it my priority.  I need to kick my body back into the shape it was last fall, and kick it up a notch from there!!  Nothing like endorphins to pull me out of these thoughts, this little low I am feeling.

Oh, I'm also thinking I should start setting aside some money for my next few tattoo's... that would certainly make me happy!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Life always moves forward...

It hurts, it sucks!  Doing what is best for yourself is not always easy, especially if coasting along is an option.  I could have just coasted and kept things as they were, but the pain at the end would have been so much worse than it is now, so much more intense.  I know it was the wise move to finish it now, but it hurts...

I only hope that I can get past this aspect of things, and continue on with a wonderful friendship one day.  I need to step back, to get myself back into my own rhythm... not worrying about someone else's.  I really need to find out just who I am, before embarking in any further relationships... who knows, maybe I will find that what I had was all I needed... but not knowing if there is anything more sure, concrete, or permanent out there, means that I just don't know yet.


“Never allow someone to be your priority, while allowing yourself to be their option”

This... this is what I need to always remember!  If the person I am making a priority in my life is not doing the same, I am short changing myself.  I am worth being someone's priority, and I should not settle for less.

As easy as this sounds, it's really not.  When you are testing the waters of relationships again, it can be very easy to fall for someone who either won't, or can't, put forth the same effort or commitment.  And of course once your heart is involved, whether or not that feeling is reciprocated, you can easily forget about the little things that bug you.

I think I am in that position right now, and it really sucks that I've let it happen.

Trying to find someone for myself, while still taking care of my 3 boys, is so much more work than I would like.  For my sake (and the boys), this side of my life needs to be kept somewhat separate.    Which just means another complication for my life, among the many I already have.  For my own sanity I should just really take a break from worrying or thinking about finding 'that one' for the rest of the summer, so many other things I should be concentrating on.  Again, not so easy to do.

Sigh, no one wants to be alone...