Monday, March 22, 2010

Now that I'm dating again...

I found this article at CNN the other day, and it got me thinking about my own 'list'.  Here's the article.  For myself the 'big' items on my list are...

  • Honesty & openness
  • Acceptance of my boys, who will always be my priority
  • Accept me for who I am, not try to change or mold me
  • Communication, whether it's the big things or just some conversation
  • Confidence, but not conceit

These are the key things for me, the ones that must be found.  Looks are not really on the list, it's more about what attracts me to that person... and it's not always how someone looks.  To me confidence is what I find attractive, if you are confident about yourself, it shows.

I want to find someone to share my life with, my dreams and my passions.  They don't have to have the same dreams, but be willing to acknowledge mine, and help me work towards them.  I am always willing to help others work towards their dreams.  I want to find dreams that can be shared, pursued, and enjoyed together.  I really just want a partner in my life.

I'm sure it will take many years to find this 'person', but I could be lucky and meet them tomorrow... or who knows, they may already be in my life and I just don't know it yet.  This is just another journey for me, another aspect of finding me.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

New Tattoo

Well, last Friday I went for another tattoo.  It's a small one, just two words on my left inside wrist.

This tattoo is my reminder, a reminder that I can't run away from the pain in my life, but that I need to embrace it and move on.  I have gone through many kinds of pain in my life, and I have tried my best to work through it when I can.  I push through pain when I go for a run, I've gone through the pain of birthing my boys, I've survived the pain of my 'Husband' cheating and leaving me.  I have not walked away from this pain, I have embraced and worked through it.

Not all of the pain in my life has been by my choice, not all the pain has been wanted.  But, I will not allow it rule my life, I will not dwell in it.  I am thinking that I should have 'Embrace Love' put on the inside of my right wrist.  Another reminder for me to embrace Love when I find it, to not worry so much about the pain that may, or may not, come about.  Love and Pain are facts of life, embrace them.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Tattoo fix ups and new ones

I'm hoping to get another laser session done to my tattoo this coming weekend.  If I'm lucky it will be the last session, and then on to getting the colours done in the proper order.  I am also getting geared up for getting a few more that I have ideas for.

The big one will most likely wait until the summer or fall, it will start at my left hip, work across my back, and then come up my right shoulder.  That would be mine and the boys birth flowers, which are Daisy (mine), Lily of the Valley (Monkey), Carnation (Bug), and Chrysanthemum (Little Man).  I like the style of this one, and think it would work well for the mixing of flowers I would like to do.

I would also like to get a tree of life (still deciding on the styling) on my calf and ankle.  I would like the roots to come down along my foot (to remind me to stay grounded), and have the tree come up along the outside of my calf.  The last one (which I am highly tempted to get this weekend)  would be the words 'Embrace Pain' in japanese characters.  This one I'm not 100% sure where I want it.  When I think about it, I think of my right upper arm, but I'm just not positive!?  Along my right thigh/hip would be nice too.

All these things to think about!