A Positive!

Okay, so yesterday was a not so great day around here, but there was one big positive! I am only 2lbs away from my weight loss goal of 135lbs. My brain is also finally catching up with the changes, and I'm actually starting to feel thin! Here is the progression of photos from April to now.

April 2009 184lbs

July 15th, 2009 154.6lbs

November 1st, 2009 137.2lbs

Failure

Do you ever fail at things?? I have many times in my life, but none hurt me the way this failure has. Can you guess what it is???

My son, my Monkey. I have failed him. I have failed to protect him, failed to always keep him safe, failed to keep life from hurting him. I do realize I can't protect him all his life, but he's only 5 and a half years old. It is my job, and my duty to protect him now. And yes, I have failed.

I have failed to protect him from his own family, he is hurting so much over all that has happened. And he will continue to hurt over this his whole life, because I couldn't keep his family together. I was given no choice, no option... but it is still my failure. I am his Mother and Father right now, and I have failed.