Monday, August 22, 2011

It always happens lol

So, did I not just write that I very rarely see the ex's thing while out and about in town?!?  Should have kept my mouth shut lol.  I managed to sneak off to Safeway while the boys visited with my Mom, needed to get some groceries for our last camping trip tomorrow.

There I was, perfectly relaxed (I LOVE shopping with no kids lol) scanning my purchases in the self-checkout, when I caught a look of the person behind me at the next station... HER!!!  What gets me is the look she gave me, I'm not responsible for any 'problems' that she may have in this town.  I have been a part of this town for over 25 years, and if asked what happened to my marriage I tell the truth!  Maybe I'm abnormal, but I don't think there is any reason to cover up what he did, it's not that me that was unfaithful, not me who destroyed a family.  Guess she doesn't like that my (and his) friends 'know' what happened, she certainly didn't have to move to the small town that I'm in lol.

Ok, so yes I told the gal working the self check out who she was lol, but she's seen me in there shopping every week for years and years, with and without the kids!  She was also there the day in November 2009 that the ex cornered me in the store and threatened to never see his children or pay for them if I didn't let his thing spend time with the boys.  He also tried to refuse to give Little Man back to me, wouldn't hand him over even though he wanted me.  I totally broke down that day, I couldn't believe that he would put her feelings above the well being of his own children.  The lady working today was the one who called my Mom to come and get me that awful day.

Making my way

It's been some time since I've posted, so much going on, and out of the habit of blogging doesn't help.  This summer has been very busy with the boys, just a bit over 4 weeks of camping has been completed, with another 5 days to go!  We've managed to put over 8000 kms on the Beast (2011 Toyota Sequoia) that I got in late June, it's been all the way from Vancouver Island to Winnipeg Manitoba!  The boys have had a blast chasing crabs, fish and frogs, as well as a varied list of insects lol.  It's been extremely hectic, but also so very rewarding.

Life is moving along, I'm making my way back to my balance.  School will start up in September for the boys, and I will then have every morning free!  Not quite sure what I will do with all this time, but I'm sure I'll find a way to fill it up lol.

I'm almost divorced too!  Can hardly wait :D  Should all be done before the end of the year.  The ex and I are fairly decent terms, been getting along for the most part, it's helped that he's stopped treating me like a second class citizen.  Part of me is still waiting for him to start acting like a jerk again, but I'm hopeful we can keep things civil from now on.  Still don't see is thing around at all, think I've seen her a total of a dozen times in almost 2 years... which rather surprises me, our town only has 13000 in it, you'd think we'd run into each other once in a while.  She must go out of her way to avoid me... guess she's afraid of the big bad ex-wife LMAO.

I'm getting ready for a new tattoo, just waiting for the design to be done.  So excited to get more ink done, been craving it for some time.  Also want another piercing, just need to find some kid free time to sneak that in.

Things with P, are well, going?!?  He's still 3 hours away, and I'm not sure if I see that changing... I really want it to change, and I think he does too, but he's either to scared to take this next step, or just taking his damn sweet time!  I'm going to start pushing him a bit harder, I don't want to spend my life waiting around. Life is too short to not take chances on love!r