Sunday, September 27, 2009

It's been a while....

So, it's been a number of weeks since my last post! Not sure why I haven't written, lots to say, just haven't felt like writing it down I guess. It's almost feels that since my life is in limbo right now, other things are in limbo too?!?!? Not sure if it makes sense, but it's how I feel! This limbo life will be over in just a few short days though, I can hardly wait to be in my new house. The boys are pretty excited too, I think we are all looking forward to our own place.

I of course am, and always will be, forever grateful to my parents for letting us stay with them this last month. It has been a total life saver for us, especially for the boys. It has really cemented their relationship with their grandparents, something they really need in this time of uncertainty. I am though really looking forward to having some privacy (and I'm sure my parents are looking forward to the quiet when we are gone) again, I'm not used to sharing my evenings with anyone anymore.

Only one real thing of note to mention tonight, I finally got a new tattoo!!! I absolutely love it, it feels like it has always been there. I can now hardly wait to plan and get my next one!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Being Single

First off, I LOVE my boys, and feel very blessed to have them in my life, but... this whole single Mom thing can really suck! I have no choice but to do everything with them, unless I can find someone to watch them. This includes Dr's appointments, grocery shopping, errands, clothes shopping (trust me, this one really sucks!), pretty much anything and everything that you encounter during the day. To just have a small break every other day of about an hour would be heaven sent! To not have to listen to the questions, fighting, crying, screaming, and general babble, to actually hear my own thoughts. I guess right now living with my parents I don't even get my quiet evenings, which is maybe why I am finding this so hard.

Before moving in here, I would spend my evenings either reading a book, cleaning, surfing online, sewing, relaxing. Pretty much anything I wanted to do, as long as it was at home. I just don't feel as comfortable doing most of that here, and of course somethings I want to do, I want privacy for... sorely lacking right now. Again, only 3 weeks!

I still don't know how long I will be doing this on my own, when He will be moving back here (he is presently living in England), or even if he will. As much as I don't want to not have the boys around, having every other weekend to myself to do with as I please would be rather nice. My social life is seriously lacking right now, as I have only been 'out' 3 or 4 times since May. Rather hard to meet people when you can't get out much. I don't necessarily want to date right now, but it would be nice to socialize. The idea of dating is kind of scary, I haven't thought along those lines in 13 years, and I'm sure things have changed since then too. Things have certainly changed for me, as I will always have 3 small boys to consider when I meet new men. I won't just be considering who would be good for me, but who would be okay with my boys. That will be one in the same from now on.

Ugh, can you tell I'm tired and my head is running around in circles??!?!? I just pray that tonight I can actually get a decent nights sleep!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

School Season is upon us!

Monkey had his first day of school last Thursday, what a big milestone! My little boy is now attending 'Big Boy' school, it's amazing how quickly they grow up. I was proud that I didn't cry, but I did get teary. This Friday Bug will start back up at pre-school, he will be attending 3 days a week this year. I will actually have 3 mornings a week just with the Little Man! It will be really nice for Little Man to have some Mama time, he very rarely gets one on one time with me.

The boys and I are slowly settling into my parents house, I think it is harder on me then them. They get to see Grandma & Grandpa every day, which is pretty much heaven to them. But for me, it's not ideal. I really need and miss my quiet time each day, especially my privacy! There really isn't any room in the house that I can be guaranteed privacy. I am sharing a room with Little Man, and across the hall is Monkey & Bug. The rest of the rooms are of course common ones that are shared with my parents. I just keep reminding myself that it is only for 3 weeks... just 3 weeks. If I can camp alone with the 3 little boys, I can handle 3 weeks in my parents house!

Sunday, September 6, 2009


I will come back on later to talk about our trip, but until then, enjoy the slide show!