A slew of posts!

I am questioning my decision already!!!  This is not good... I need something to occupy my evenings, something to look forward to.  Housework just doesn't have the appeal, same with sewing or crafts... but something needs to happen to keep me from going crazy!

Exercise... I need to get back to nightly exercise!  I am heading out camping Wednesday with my boys, so it won't be an easy thing to work into my evenings... but when I'm back, I need to make it my priority.  I need to kick my body back into the shape it was last fall, and kick it up a notch from there!!  Nothing like endorphins to pull me out of these thoughts, this little low I am feeling.

Oh, I'm also thinking I should start setting aside some money for my next few tattoo's... that would certainly make me happy!

Wonderful start to June.

I always forget just how much I love dancing, until I get out and actually dance!  Friday night was a blast!  Danced like a crazy lady, got all hot and sweaty, closed the bar down.  It has been years since I last danced that hard, I suspect the last time I danced that hard was before I got married... holy crap!  I went out with the intention of not getting picked up, which wasn't easy... there was a number of guy's trying very, very hard... but all I really wanted to do was enjoy myself and dance!

I had my hair chopped off that afternoon, and am so happy that I did!  I'm thinking I will go a bit shorter next time, but overall I'm extremely happy with it.  I've never had quite this much fun with my hair, or tried something so different... it was time to change it up, my hair style (which I did love) just wasn't keeping up with who I am becoming these days.

And here it is...

Today I added to my collection of tattoo's.  It was a great deal at Tiki Town.  Donate a minimum of $50 to cure cancer, and get a 30 minute tattoo!  There was no way I could say no to this, such a wonderful cause!  A number of the artists working today are also going to be doing the Ride to Conquer Cancer.  I ended up getting Mitch, who is the artist who did my Pheonix and my wrists.  I was joined by two friends, who also got something added to their collection.  I had this lotus flower placed on my right inside forearm, and am really happy with how it turned out.

There is only one slight drawback to my wonderful weekend, I need to replace my DVD player.  It would appear the kids have played with it too much, and it no longer wants to work properly.  My guess is that Little Man did something, he is my destructive child after all.  Not sure quite why my boys think I'm made of money, but they are certainly causing me much grief these days!

Fun times ahead!

Going to be quite the packed weekend!  New hair style tomorrow, a good 5-6 inches being taken off!  Then of course drinking and dancing to show off my new sassy hair, really looking forward to the dancing, it's been way too long!  Saturday will see me stretching and twisting into some Yoga poses.  I recently started Hot Yoga, and this saturday is a boot camp.  This will give me some one on one time to really get into the poses properly.  Going to be a fairly intense 3 hours though!

Sunday will be another tattoo for me!  Tiki Town is doing a fundraiser for the Ride to Cure Cancer, and it really doesn't take much to convince me to get more lol.  I am planning on a lotus flower on my right inner forearm, a few inches below 'Embrace Love' that I got a few months ago.  Although I am somewhat tempted to get it on my neck, but not sure I'm ready for any there right now.

This past week has had many ups and downs for me, been a bit of a bumpy ride.  The yoga classes and my running are good for me as always, but for a short time after I find I'm a little short tempered.  The only reason I can think of is that I am feeling so good, so refreshed after my workout, that the kids demands/fighting just brings me down to fast and too hard.  I love how I feel after I work out, relaxed, calm and so much more comfortable in my skin.  I love my boys more than I could ever verbalize, but they know how to push my buttons... too well.  Hopefully in the coming weeks and months I can learn to keep that calm after my workouts longer... have it last further than the initial after glow.

Tattoo Crazy!

My latest tattoo is only a month old, and I already am getting anxious to get another one!  I've asked my Mom to come up with a design to represent her, something that I could have to always remember her.  I don't think she is too crazy about doing it, but I really hope she does.  It would mean a lot to me to have something of her like that permanently with me at all times.

I had my back piece (the one with the boys birthstones) lasered 2 weeks ago, and it looks like it will need at least one more laser session before it will be ready for the fix up.  I am getting very anxious to this done too, I want it complete.  I also must say the lasering is so much more painful than the actual tattoo, not something I really want to have to get done too often.

I am sort of leaning towards making the Phoenix on my left arm a sleeve, but a little unsure of just how it would all work out.  It will most likely be a few years before I consider that, as it will be fairly costly, and I have other pieces I want done first.  But it is there in the back of my mind.

I am also trying to figure out what piercings I want done as well.  I'm thinking of getting a fair number on the cartilage of my ears, as well as some labrets.  Biggest concern there is how my Mother will feel about them when I am working for her?!  If I one day buy her out of the store, than it will not be an issue, but of course it is her business right now, so her choice as to what is acceptable.

Things 2...

Well, it has been an extremely busy week off of school!  I feel like I've really had little time to just enjoy things... except for Monday.  On that day I took the boys, along with my Mom, up to Banff for some walking around, as well as a chance to use the hot springs.  Which I won't be able to use for a few weeks because of my Tattoo.  The boys had a blast in the water, really need to make more time to go swimming with them once my tattoo is healed.  Monkey is getting very, very brave in the water.  It is such a nice change considering how scared he used to be, although it has it's draw backs as well.  I have to be extra vigilant keeping an eye on him.

My tattoo is healing, but is still very tender.  Putting a shirt on is uncomfortable, and sleeping isn't much better right now.  Another few days though and it should be much better.  Going to see about getting another session of lasering for my back next week, really want to get that finished off.  I don't want to get another tattoo until my back is done.  I will also need to chat with some artists about designing my next two as well.

I have a busy weekend off planned right now.  I'm heading out with a friend tonight for some drinking (not too much) and some dancing.  I will then be working for my Mom at her store Saturday, it's been many (at least 5) years since I have worked for her.  It will be interesting to see how that goes.  It's actually been that long since I last worked a job of any kind!  Scary!!!  I am then going on a date Saturday night, another scary thought!  I've been on a number since October, but it's still something that makes me nervous.  The joys of being single again!

Got it done!

Well, the new tattoo is done... ouch!  Took longer than I expected, 4 hours!  It was worth it though.  I didn't get the best pic of it afterwards, will have to wait till the bandage comes off in the morning before I take another one.  And here it is...

Tattoo time again!

I'm heading in to Tiki Town on Tuesday to get my next tattoo done... pretty excited, and a bit nervous too. I'm getting a Phoenix on my left arm, it will be about 8 inches long.

I will also be getting 'Embrace Love' put on the inside of my right wrist.  I somewhat nervous about all these tattoo's that will be so visible, but at the same time it feels right.  I am finally doing what feels right and I love that!

I'm also looking at buying a bike, a Honda Shadow to be exact.  There's one I'm very interested in, just need to figure out a time to look at it.  I have to take a friend who can ride with me, to test drive it.  I will then sign up for some lessons, and work hard to get my license.  I've been on the back of bikes since I was 12, had a scooter when I was 14, just never driven a motorcycle.  I was out for a ride last weekend with a friend, and it made me realize just how much I want to do this.

So many changes coming along for me, but they all feel so right... my life if finally moving forward.

New Tattoo

Well, last Friday I went for another tattoo.  It's a small one, just two words on my left inside wrist.

This tattoo is my reminder, a reminder that I can't run away from the pain in my life, but that I need to embrace it and move on.  I have gone through many kinds of pain in my life, and I have tried my best to work through it when I can.  I push through pain when I go for a run, I've gone through the pain of birthing my boys, I've survived the pain of my 'Husband' cheating and leaving me.  I have not walked away from this pain, I have embraced and worked through it.

Not all of the pain in my life has been by my choice, not all the pain has been wanted.  But, I will not allow it rule my life, I will not dwell in it.  I am thinking that I should have 'Embrace Love' put on the inside of my right wrist.  Another reminder for me to embrace Love when I find it, to not worry so much about the pain that may, or may not, come about.  Love and Pain are facts of life, embrace them.

Tattoo fix ups and new ones

I'm hoping to get another laser session done to my tattoo this coming weekend.  If I'm lucky it will be the last session, and then on to getting the colours done in the proper order.  I am also getting geared up for getting a few more that I have ideas for.

The big one will most likely wait until the summer or fall, it will start at my left hip, work across my back, and then come up my right shoulder.  That would be mine and the boys birth flowers, which are Daisy (mine), Lily of the Valley (Monkey), Carnation (Bug), and Chrysanthemum (Little Man).  I like the style of this one, and think it would work well for the mixing of flowers I would like to do.

I would also like to get a tree of life (still deciding on the styling) on my calf and ankle.  I would like the roots to come down along my foot (to remind me to stay grounded), and have the tree come up along the outside of my calf.  The last one (which I am highly tempted to get this weekend)  would be the words 'Embrace Pain' in japanese characters.  This one I'm not 100% sure where I want it.  When I think about it, I think of my right upper arm, but I'm just not positive!?  Along my right thigh/hip would be nice too.


All these things to think about!

I am exctited!

So, this Friday I am going to Tribal Expressions.  They are a highly recommended piercing parlour.  This may shock some of you, but those that have known me longer won't be as surprised.  I am getting my nipples pierced!  I have wanted this done for many, many years.  Long before I met my Ex.  I was always nervous about doing, and then once I was with my Ex, I knew he wouldn't approve.  So, here I am in my middle 30's, about to get my nipples pierced!  I am anxiously awaiting Friday afternoon now.

I will also be getting my tattoo lasered so that it can be fixed up properly by my tattoo artist.  I just need the top two colours (red & green) to be lasered off, then go back in to have it all touched back up.  Once it is done and healed, I will be planning my next one.  I would like to get mine and the boys birth flowers tattooed across my back and along my sides.  This one will probably take more than one session, but will be worth it in the end.

You may be wondering why I am doing all this.  It's a pretty easy answer.  I am now doing all the things I would have done had I not married the Ex 13 years ago.  I knew he did not approve of tattoo's or piercing, so I refrained from getting any.  Now that I am not living my life for anyone but myself, I am finally going ahead with these things.  Whoever I end up with next will have to accept me for who I am. I will not change myself so drastically again.

It's been a while....

So, it's been a number of weeks since my last post! Not sure why I haven't written, lots to say, just haven't felt like writing it down I guess. It's almost feels that since my life is in limbo right now, other things are in limbo too?!?!? Not sure if it makes sense, but it's how I feel! This limbo life will be over in just a few short days though, I can hardly wait to be in my new house. The boys are pretty excited too, I think we are all looking forward to our own place.

I of course am, and always will be, forever grateful to my parents for letting us stay with them this last month. It has been a total life saver for us, especially for the boys. It has really cemented their relationship with their grandparents, something they really need in this time of uncertainty. I am though really looking forward to having some privacy (and I'm sure my parents are looking forward to the quiet when we are gone) again, I'm not used to sharing my evenings with anyone anymore.

Only one real thing of note to mention tonight, I finally got a new tattoo!!! I absolutely love it, it feels like it has always been there. I can now hardly wait to plan and get my next one!

Wow...

So, the boys are moved out to Grandma & Grandpa's, and I have the house to myself tonight! Although I do not plan on staying here all that much longer, just waiting for a friend to get over here so we can head out. We are going to check out the Tattoo convention, then off for some drinks. I am looking for an artists to do a piece on the back of my neck. It will be a Victorian Stylized light post, the colours will be the boys birthstones. Monkey is Emerald (the one I am also telling to Go), the Bug is Ruby (the one I am constantly saying Stop to), and then Little Man is Topaz (the one that I am always saying be careful to). I figure it will be around 3 inches long, and 1 to 2 inches wide.

I do want to get another one done, but it will have to wait till next year I think. I would like it to start on my lower abdomen, travel up my side, and finish off on my upper back. That one will consist of the boys birth flowers, and maybe mine as well. I have wanted to get more ink (I have one tattoo on my stomach, that I got 13 years ago) for a very long time, and I do not feel like waiting anymore. It is time I do what I want, and not worry about anyone else. And this will not affect the boys in any way, so I say let's do it!!!

Tomorrow will be the day to get everything out of here, I am so excited! I can hardly wait to have this house put behind me, the last few months have not been good here.