I wouldn't say things are great, but they are moving along. I am finding ways to keep myself grounded, and not spiral down into depression... which concerns me greatly. I have many, many good friends who are all supporting me during this time, listening to me rant, cry, and anything else that I say. Exercise is also playing an important role for me, it feels incredibly good to workout each and every night. It is also a great feeling seeing the results from all that hard work.
I am changing my life, for the better as well. I have only watched TV twice since this all started May 18th, just not something that I am interested in. When I am more settled I may watch some shows while I iron, or get other work done, but that is still some time away. I feel that once he is out of the house I will be able to do the other things that I plan on accomplishing, but right now, I just don't want to do them while he is here. These things I want to do are for me, and me only.
I'm not sure what else will change, only time will bring those things about, but I cannot keep living my life the way I have for the last few years. I am important, I do matter, and I cannot put myself on the back burner any longer. This is my life, and I will strive to make it a good and fulfilling one.
There's that saying about how it's not what happens to you in life, but how you deal with it, and you seem to be choosing to move weather this storm in such a healthy way. I know it's not easy, but it sounds like you are doing all the right things. Keep it up, and on the hearder days, just remember to 'fake it till you make it'!ReplyDelete
Thank you Hattie9, I am doing my best to not fall into a pit... it would serve no purpose, as well as just hurt he children.ReplyDelete
...Just wanted you to know that I'm a Jan 06 BBC mom, we were on the BITO thread at the same time. Just to put me in context :-)ReplyDelete