Trying to breath

Breathing is supposed to be easy, something our body does naturally...

But lately I can't seem to catch my breath, it catches in my throat...

Emotionally I'm a wreck, I can't seem to find solid footing from day to day.  I can feel myself pushing people away, especially those that I should be holding closer.

My boys are the only reason I struggle to keep breathing, and yet I worry if that will always be the case.