Elusive sleep

In a bid to get better rest last night, I took 3 melatonin at 10 pm last night.  As sleepy as I got, sleep was elusive.  I laid there for hours, in and out of sleep.  No real thoughts going through my head, just random images.

The big question that is being asked, not just by others that I'm shutting out, but by myself.

WHAT IS WRONG?

I really wish I knew.  I really wish I had the answers.

But

I DON'T!

Maybe I don't want to know the answer this time.  Maybe I'm tired of always making things work.  Maybe I'm tired of being strong.

I just don't know...