Writing hasn't been easy the last few years, the words just don't want to flow. Then again, a lot of what I want to say isn't easy. This is the hardest...
My Bug had stage 4 Burkitts Lymphoma.
He's 2 years out from treatment now, and doing exceptionally well. Certainly doesn't mean I don't worry about so many different things with him though.
Now that he's healthy and well, I need to focus on Monkey and Little Man. They are both struggling in school. Both have problems with focus, emotions, completing tasks. It's not easy helping them when I am working full time running a business.
That's another change, started working last fall... after over 10 years home with my boys! It's not easy! I'm trying to find a way to balance time for myself, and the small time I have with the boys every night.
Time for me...
I have let myself go so badly the last few years, physically and emotionally. The emotional was the after effect of Bug's cancer, which in turn brought about my physical decline. I have never been this heavy in my life, and it's draining. I'm tired all the time, my body aches, and my clothes most certainly do not fit well.
Where to start?! The obvious is just getting up and moving, which sounds easier than it is. I am not a morning person, and yet that is the likely the best time for me to workout. I have to somehow train myself to get OUT OF BED when my alarm goes off at 5:30 am, and not press snooze repeatedly. Doesn't help that the pups are snuggled in keeping me warm.
Here's my commitment. Get out of bed tomorrow at 5:30 no matter what!
I'll keep you updated.
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