First off, I am happy. I find it very strange that I can say that, only 7 months after my husband of 13 years left me for another women. But, it is very true. I am happy to be in charge of my life, to take it where I want it to go. I am ecstatic to do the things I have thought of with longing for so many years, but always worried whether or not my husband would approve.
I believe your head tells you where others want you to be, your heart tells you where your ties are, but listening to your soul...tells you where to go.
I am still taking each day as it comes, and slowly learning how to relax with my boys. I no longer want to be the controlling Mom that I was, it is not really who I am. This I am finding harder to change, which you would think would be the easiest?!? I have learned how to use a power drill, not sure why I waited so long! My house is a mess, especially compared to how I kept the old one. But, I no longer want to be the 'Perfect House Mom'. I am so far from being perfect, and never want to be either.
I am getting my tattoo fixed up next month, as well as getting a few piercings. I am hoping to start work on my next tattoo in February, March at the latest. I am coming out of my shell, and living how I want to live.
I also think I need to either re-vamp this blog, or start another one. This one has morphed (as life does) over the year, and does not really reflect who or what I am anymore. I may keep it around for posts about my boys, but for myself, I think a change is in order. I want to be freer about who I am.
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